A false New Beginning

This virtual space was my life untill i realised i had to take control of my life and not let anything external be so important to me tht, i lose all control on myself.

But life comes a full circle and i have come back to where i had begun from.
I had left this place for good. Sure of the fact that i can now be at the helm of evrything that matters to me. Although so much has happened in the past one year since this space went dead, i won't be able to recollect any of it for the sheer reason that i failed at comprehending my real purpose in life.And all that i have done in the past one year seems like a mirage, a dream that i have come out of. Or may be this is a dream that i am trying to run away from.

Don't want to be in this dream.
It kills me.
I ache to break free.
I feel angry for letting all this happen to me.

Its my fault that i gave up on me. My impuissance, my ambition, my desire that has landed me where i am today. I struggle to ravel out myself from this web. A trap i'm responsible for building.

Its painful to accept the fact that i have to begin again...
Was i wrong? Were my choices wrong? May be not, have got so much more than i could have ever imagined all cuz of the choices i made.M happy about it. But guess i have to give me some time to figure out the truth.

This place was never buried, may be cuz it knew i would come back...

So much said..
So much done..
SO much seen...
So much felt...
So much dreamt of...
So much proved...
So much for..

A false new beginning.