Its a Closet.

Its a closet.
Every shelf has a purpose.
Every shelf has the space.
Every shelf has the clutter.
Every shelf has the dust.
Every shelf has a masterpiece.

Its a closet.
The closet has a door.
The door has a knob.
The knob has the rust.
The rust keeps away the hands.

The hands that would open the door to the world outside.
The hands that would open the world outside,
to the world inside.

The closet is my BRAIN.
The closet is my MIND.

       

You and Me

How about you and me never talk about it
How about you and me make up for what we lost
How about you and me never look back
How about you and me walk together
How about you and me run together
How about you and me smile together
How about you and me play together
How about you and me dream together

How about you and me stay together
My dear Conscience,
How about you and me stay together
Stay together F.O.R.E.V.E.R.

Bhavishyawani

My today's ORKUT fortune.

"Stop searching forever, happiness is just next to you."

Words in my Life

Me. They. Hair. Play. Kids. Responsibility. Ability. Desire. Faith. God. Enough. Quiet. Pain. Strength. Colours. Sense. Logic. Mc Donalds. Food Factory. Rave. Music. Good. Bad. Right. Wrong. Cure. Party. Viruses. Computer. Mistakes. Dominance. Anger. Reflection. Realisation. Enlightened. Too. Out. Much. Stare. Tears. Hatred. Close. Open. Blogger. Spam mail. Experience. Station. Pass.( ........ ). People. Charity. Personality. Struggle. Time. Book. Magazine. Hackneyed. Feel. Newspaper. Futile. Drop. HR. (.....).Timid. Gate. Competition. Yahoo. MSN. Shy. Night. Logic. Defend. Family. Discussion. Expect. Idea. Aware. Repercussion. Economy. Disdain. Control. Give. Lack.Trust. Respect. Love. Doodle. Fido Dido. Interconnection. Exam. Surprise. Everyone. Usual. Empathy. Question. First. Answer. Justify. Be. Look. Enjoy. Easy. Shapes. Creativity. Deny. Reject. Ok. Relationship. Best. Friend. Attitude. Change. Date. Scared. Lesson. Concealed. Blame. Words. Current Affairs. Rock. Sudden. Success. Wait. Understand. Regret. Amazed. Lot. Boy. Teach. Stay. Divert. Dissapointment. Same. Yourself. Wish. Silence. Accept. Codes. Cannot. Again. Stop. Use. Place. Want. Do not. Others. Improve. Source. When. Never. Talk. Problem. Psyche. Thanks. Equal. Choice. Early. Introvert. Laughter.


Confusion + Puzzled
Confuzzled

"M" says what?

Today the kids learnt a new alphabet M. They are taught with refrences to the phonetics they know.....so they were taught as....M says 'muh' as said in hindi.
They were asked to mention words starting with M.
Prompt came the reply.........

M says Mobile.
M says Money.

Changing times!

abcdefghijklmnopqrstuvwxyz

I work as volunteer for an NGO aiming at educating underprivilged children.Since the day I had joined, being a newbie I had serious trouble controlling a class of 20-25 kids aged between 5-6 yrs.Most of the time I found myself running after the kids just trying to make them sit in one place and listen to me.If somehow I managed to make Sujata sit quietly in one place Deeva would start hitting Kavita.Mohiddin will be busy disturbing other kids and Deepak will be enjoying throwing away the stationery.The first few days I actually came back feeling like a loser...not able to make the kids do something as basic as listening to me forget about teaching!
I remember being a very naughty and talkative girl in the class when I was in school.I wonder how the teachers managed me?
More than that I pity my mum who has been so patient with me and managed me so efficiently! After I came back from the class everyday I would ask my mother."Mom please tell me how do I mange these little monsters!They just would not listen to me."There have been instances where I have been literally running after the kids in the class struggling to gain control over them.Some start throwing stationery at each other, some start hitting each other or worst of all run out of the class!Which means I am running a marathon in the whole school! Some of the kids are so intelligent and listen to you and some just get on your nerves.This one time I had to make the children sit in a circle and was supposed to teach them addition and substraction with the use of coloured blocks.For the first time miraculously I could manage to make them sit in a circle which by all means resembled a circle compared to the previous formations in my initial days as a teacher!I was so proud of myself for achieving this feat, but, my happiness was shortlived.Immediately as they sat in the circle everyone pounced on me for the blocks.I felt like a helpless rabbit being attacked by ferocious baby faced assasins. Overwhelmed by the out of control situation I felt a sudden wave of energy running through my veins and just like Shah rukh Khan did it in the climax of DDLJ ,I woke up with a scream and said with a tone of authority and frustration "Will you all stop it! What is happening here?!Don't you understand what I am saying to you all?!Everybody sit down quietly in your places or I will take away evrybody's t-shirts(these are T-shirts provided as uniforms by the NGO to the kids which they wear over their normal clothes).Three of the kids were still making noise and I said to them "You three are bad students you don't listen to didi.All the other kids are good students,they are sitting quietly". To this Mohiddin said "Haan yeh teen gandhiji ke bandar or yeh(pointing towards me) beech me gandhiji". I was shocked to hear the comment and burst out laughing. All the kids started to laugh too again making the whole place resemble a fish market.(There can be tremendous amount of noise pollution in a class of kids aged 5-7yrs).Mohiddin is just 5yrs old but the instant comment surprised me so much that I forgot the whole class has gone completely out of control. I started to curse myself for being such a fool and not being able to control the class. I am still working on my skills of handling kids....hopefully I am able to manage the kids atleast for sometime when I go back to my class on Monday :(.

Cobwebs

Cobwebs
Big cobwebs.
Small cobwebs.
Dirty cobwebs.
Evil cobwebs.

Life is a cobweb.

I am standing on the door
Waiting for it to explode

I am walking on the road
Waiting for it to scream
“Leave me alone”

I am dreaming everyday
Waiting for the bubble to burst

I am listening to a song
Waiting for it to strum my nerves

I am cleansing my face
Waiting for the facade to get washed away

I am listening to you
Waiting for the pain to get snatched away

I am talking to you
Waiting for you to lash out at me

I am reading a book
Waiting for the words to trick me

I am looking into your eyes
Waiting to witness the repentant gaze

I am playing everyday
Waiting to find the way out of this maze

I have scores of questions
Waiting to find the answers

I travel everyday
Waiting to find the destination

I am standing on the shore
Waiting to grip the flow

My sanity is on the door
Waiting ...to explode

Yippie!!!!!

Me in Pune :)
Having fun with college friends........living college days once again.
Went to the Strings concert on sunday.....WOW!!!!!!Amazing!!!
Fell in love with Bilal......fantastic!!!
Having loads of fun.

Mood:Excited
Song on my mind:'Duurr....'

"He's just not that into you"

I read this article in the ToI about this book that was a rage in the US.The book was "He's just not that into you" by Greg Behrendt. The book was instrumental in cracking the codes that guys used to camouflage the truth about their relationships.It became so popular that the essence of it was adapted into the series 'Sex and the City'. Also, Oprah Winfrey decided to give the book a coverage on her show.Though I missed the 'Sex and the City' episode I got to watch the Oprah Winfrey show.And it was quite an eyeopener for the women who had found themselves in situations which screamed aloud about their guys that "He's just not that into into you", but they(women) just did not want to accept it or didn't understand the implied reasoning behind the excuses made by the guys.

Some of the common codes used to say the implied were:


- He just makes too many excuses.
- Says, "I am busy".
- Says, "Right now I have too many priorities to take care of".(on being questioned when are we getting married?)
- Will send text messages to say 'I miss you' or display affection after a prolonged gap of not being in contact after
a wonderful date.
- Says will call but doesn't.
- Asks you about your weekend plans and on knowing them replies with a cold 'Cool'.
- Says, "I am not ready".
- Says, "I don't want to ruin our friendship".
- Says, "I love you but I am not in love with you".

These easy to say, often heared words have some complex threads of truth to unravel.The following is how the codes are deciphered to give a clear picture of the truth in their respective orders:


- This simply, plainly, easily means that he just doesn't want to be with YOU.
- This means he is probably busy with other women, watching a game of baseball or any other god damn thing
under the sun but be with YOU.(He's just not that into you)
- The third says that you don't count as an vital part of my life and you are simply not my priority.
- The fourth and fifth mean that he is not even interested in hearing your voice.(How harsh is that!)
- The sixth means that my weekends are better off without you!
- I am not ready can mean many things:
~I am ready for sex but not for dating.
~I am not ready to give up the other two women in my life for you.
~Or, a plain 'You are not the girl'.
- The eighth means a rude 'You are not desirable'.Behrendt said that in the history of the usage of this excuse it has never been used for the right reasons.
- In the "I love you but I am not in love with you", the first i love you means I don't want to hurt your feelings and
the second evidently means that I am not in love with you.

The most bizzare excuse given by a guy to his girlfriend for not being in contact for long after he accidently bumped into her in a pub was "I dropped my phone into the toilet and lost all the numbers.I was so upset that I lost all the numbers"!!! The guy said on the show "I dont know where did this excuse come up from, but she actually believed it as I was very elaborate when I was explaining".So the next time if anybody's boyfriend said i dropped my phone into the toilet don't believe him.But, what are the chances of anyone saying anything weird and hopeless like this?!?!?! Probably many....one may never know!

Oprah's boyfriend stood her up and said "The problem is babydoll that you think you are special"Oprah reacted with a pinch of scorn, saying on the show "Where is he now, and where am I"!

There is this one guy who has different tiers of girlfriends for different days of the weeks. And their numbers are stored in his phone as:
~The Dream Team (girls he really wants to be with)
~The associates (girls he wouldn't mind talking to)
~Unfiled (girls he has got no business with after a while and doesn't care to even pick up their call)
Must say quite an organised guy!!!
For his weekends he has girls named as the 'Booty Call' whom he calls when he is drunk and going home after the party.

Mentioned him here as he says and so does the book that, if the guy really loves a woman he will make sure in every possible way to let her know and to show her that he loves her and treasures her.The guys validate their stand by saying that the truth is hard for them to say because they don't want to hurt the girl's feelings.They want to avoid the tears.

The best way out suggested for girls was to move on. When they know what they want, but don't get what they want, they should move on.They should raise the bar for themselves and move on and not lose out on the opportunity of meeting other good guys by sulking in the old realtionship. They should stop rationalising the guy's excuses.Realise the fact that they deserve honesty and good people in their life.A girl should not go out with a guy who does not ask her out first,keeps her waiting by the phone,always drinks or does drugs in front of her to the extent of making her uncomfortable,who has already rejected her,doesn't want to talk about their future together and is not a good,kind,loving, caring person.

Whatever be the codes......the answer is, "He's just not that into you"!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR

It's been long since I visited my blog.In the past few days lots has happened........the new year has started
, Asia encounterd the most devastating natural calamity in the form of Tsunami.......thousands of people died, thousands left homeless, lives shattered to pieces.
On the personal front I have taken certain tough decisions which I should have taken long before(regarding my career)......but as its said "Whatever happens, happens for the best" . So I am hoping now everything goes smoothly.

I was wondering since its the new year, what should be my new year resolution? Considering the history of all my past failed "Happy New Year" resolutions....I felt that its better that I make no resolutions......but there are certain things that I would/would not like to do in this year. Like....

1.Never watch a movie with Amitabh Bachchan as a sardar in it.

2.Never make new year plans in advance.

3.Never watch any of Ekta Kapoor stuff.

4.Return the library books on time.

5.Start smiling a little more.

6.Never ever try the chicken flavoured Maggi.

7.Never eat the sizzlers at 'Darshan'.

8.Not to send Gmail invites to anyone and everyone.

9.Stop collecting Brett Lee photographs.

10.Stop going to 'Scream- The Club'.

11.Look for new places to go.

12.Start praying more and regularly.

13.Tell my family more often that I love them.

14.Clean my bookshelf more often.

15.Getting rid of junk stuff more often from my wallet.

16.Make my own hand bags.

17.Always eat sweet pani puris.

18.Wake up early.

19.Stop looking for Richard Gere posters.

20.Stop bugging Moksha.

21.Keep getting new passport sized photographs.

22.Always travel with spare footwear, even if it is going shopping for grocery!!

23.Never step out of the house without my sandalwood beads bracelet.

24.Stop creating any more e-mail accounts.

25.Drink lots of water.


These are the certain things that count as my resolutions for this year.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERY ONE.
Have loads of fun, happiness, peace and success in your life.

Hope the Tsunami victims find strength and courage to overcome their grief.

Life is an open road to me...

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Whose Life is it anyway?

For the past few months I have been watching anything and everything on TV.The one genre of shows that I saw often were the Reality cum Talent shows.I encountered the concept of Reality tv for the first time through the movie 'The Truman Show'.At that point of time i thought it was a new and somewhat invasive concept.But since then a plethora of these shows have stormed the television.The first biggest show in India was I think the Channel[v] Popstars.On watching the ordinary looking but talented girls making it big in the music industry my mother would say in amazement "Kahan se kahan pahuch gayi yeh ladkiyaan".That was the effect of these reality cum talent shows expressed in simpler terms by an average person!

In the same year of 2001 we heared about one of the controversial reality tv shows "The Temptation Island" .I remember I was in the hostel at that time and we all (group of friends)had decided to watch it.Quite tempting indeed :D.But unfortunately we couldn't watch it cuz the warden found the concept to be too alien to the Indian culture.(silly her).

Anyway the next big show that made news with the youthful crowd was MTV Hero Honda Roadies(included Hero Honda here cuz i just can't imgaine the name without the whole Hero Honda thingie ringing in my ears said everytime during the commercial break).Quite a fresh concept of traversing around India on the bikes and also getting to see some bizzare stuff like Roadie Ranvijay walking down the street dressed as a Batman and Roadie Tony (and other guys too) dressed as girls and dancing in a crowded club.When my dad saw me watching this he said 'What rubbish have you started watching and what is wrong with those guys?' Well, but at the end of the day they all got a bike and Ranvijay hit the jackpot and has become a VJ!!! Quite a lucky fellow.

This year too has had many, infact too many to remember and also some very easily forgettable shows. My current favourite being "The Apprentice".Donald trump said on the 'The Oprah Winfrey Show' that he loves to say "You are fired". No doubt it has given a whole new look to the definition of 'You are fired'.If i don't like what my sister says I can say "you are fired". HOW COOL IS THAT. :-D

Some other shows were "MTV Hero Honda Roadies2", "India's best cinestars ki khoj" on Zee tv, "Indian Idol" on Sony channel,ESPN-Star Sports"Harsha Ki Khoj", Channel [V] Super Singer the first episode of which was telecasted on so many different channels of Star tv, then "The Simple Life" on Star World with Paris Hilton and Nicole Richie.I think its the most humiliating(for the host family)show ever.Channel[V] is starting a new talent hunt for the most happening band!

Not to forget(though very ironical since they ARE forgettable!) some item girl search contests too!!!

Its lot of good money and loads of fame and glamour too.Look at Ranvijay....he has been spotted in every cool party including 'The Bombay Times' 10th anniversary party! and also has been spotted many times with VJ Anusha too.....hmm definitely lucky.....:-D

What I have found common in all these shows is the fact that people enjoy looking at life from a different person's point of view.Its trying to live somebodyelse's life when they know its not easy to get anything in life.Its reality but still a distant dream for most of them.Not everyone can be the Indian Idol or Super Singer or VIVA or Asma.Its an unusual sense of satisfaction that is derived from all this.Deep down inside the human being is trying to find his own dreams,aspirations,motivation in other successful people's success.

WHOSE LIFE IS IT ANYWAY?